“Even when my book Brutally Honest came out, I still had this feeling: ‘Do people believe me?’ It’s so hard to shake and it’s something I’ve spoken to so many other women in the same situation. It never stopped me doing everything I could to raise awareness, but it is still this feeling somewhere deep down. So very weirdly, to see this letter saying the Prime Minister had spoken to the Queen and they were going to give me this award, I felt I wasn’t just being recognised, I was being believed.”